I was supposed to get to make the happy baby announcement this Christmas. I would have been due in June if the last cycle had worked. I knew this was coming. I just hope it would take a little longer.
After I bawled my eyes out for ten minutes on hubby's shoulder and began to catch my breath, he whispered "sweetie, I have to tell you something else..."
Oh good god?! What?
"K is due in June too."
It took me a second to absorb that he was talking about his 39 year old brother's 29 year old girlfriend of nine fucking months.
Excuse me? What?
It was an accident. They don't know what they are doing yet. It's a family secret, but if she's due in June, we all know they've got about a month or so left before they can't hide it anymore.
Holy fuck. Both of our little brothers are expecting in fucking June.
Was it really too much to ask for one Christmas that didn't have to be over shadowed by a pregnancy or baby's first? I've been working so hard at my holiday spirit. Sooooo hard. And it's just been ripped out, crushed and stomped on. Jokes on you, you dillusional infertile.
I've got more to vent, but out Internet is down, and iPhone blogging is a pain. Plus, I need to go fix my eye makeup because Hubby and I are meeting friends for a matinee of the Slutcracker - a burlesque version of the nutcracker, because that's what dinks do on their Sunday afternoons at Christmas.
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Oh no :( I'm so sorry you're in this position. It sucks so much. My younger brother also had an oops pregnancy with his girlfriend. It stings for sure. Hang in there and enjoy the show today!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. This sucks so, so, so much. It is entirely, amazingly unfair and I hate it for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope the Slutcracker helps lift your spirits a bit.
I am so sorry you have to deal with this....this sounds like my Christmas last year. I heard one pregnancy announcement after another plus dealing with a best friend's first baby and losing my own.
ReplyDeleteIt sucks...but hold on to your holiday spirit. It's there to help you get through this.
Enjoy the Slutcracker....it sounds rather entertaining....
Oh god - that is just the worst! It's just so unfair. At least you have a week to prepare and they did not do a surprise announcement on Christmas day.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.
That totally bites! There are no other words to make it any better! Sending love your way!
ReplyDeleteOh Holy Fuck is right...I am so so so sorry. That just really really sucks. No words I can write can make it better. Just know I'm thinking of you and sending hugs....
ReplyDeleteOh good. Someone who bawled as hard as I did this morning. We are kindred spirits as we just try to survive this holiday season...when things should have been so different for us....
ReplyDeleteI can't take one more pregnancy announcment from the undeserving. Not one. Glad you feel the same.
You are keeping me sane you know. Thanks for that.
Wow what a kick in the gut. I am so sorry that you have to endure this, especially during Christmas when its already hard to deal with things. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteGod I'm sorry. I get it. Seriously. My little sis is pregnant with her second, my boss is preggers, my good gal pal is expecting and I just don't know how to deal.
ReplyDeleteI feel like running away all the time, somewhere I don't know someone pregnant. I feel like falling apart all the time. I understand how hard it is.
Seriously, if you want to call me and vent...lord knows I could use it too...please e-mail me and I will send you my number friend. lissmo@hotmail.com
p.s. my face looks like that all the time.
Ugh, as if the holidays aren't hard enough for an infertile! That really sucks.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. No matter how much you love them, it still stings every time. Especially when it's unplanned and not appreciated nearly the way you two would. And even more difficult that it's over the holiday season. Thinking of you -
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry - that just sucks!!! double whammy!! I am praying for you and hope that the christmas spirit finds you again. ugh- I am so frustrated for you!
ReplyDeleteI think announcements like that should be banned from the holidays!! That is soo Fucking unfair (and I don't curse)!!
ReplyDeleteI wish I could say the news would be easier to handle if the last one had worked, but honestly, it doesn't ever get easier. There are only 2 people I know right now that I'd genuinely be excited to hear were expecting. Unfortunately, they haven't been able to get to that point.
Hang in there as best you can. I'm thinking and hoping and praying for you!
I'm so sorry. That sucks hard core. :( When it rains it pours.
ReplyDeleteI've never heard of the slutcracker. It sounds pretty cool.
Thinking of you.
So sorry...this totally blows.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry. This year I'll be going through my twin sister's second Christmas in a row with a new baby while I'm still not pregnant. It hurts like hell, but we'll get through it. Hang in there!!
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