Cause yes, still in a whiny mood. Still feeling crappy. Still too much to do at work. I had to go back up to my desk from the work Christmas party to keep plugging away, and to get some time in with my coworker, who is out of the office most of the week. Even still, even though I left the party, and stayed late to talk with her, it's still rushed, and frantic. She had to run back to her desk to do more work on another project because she's out of town ahain for the next two days! This entire project is rushed and frantic. Most of my team is in and out of the office all of the time. We're all there together maybe one day a week. And this project is far too complicated for the size of our team and the amount of attention being paid to it. And I am far too inexperienced to carry it on my own.
So, I finally left work, desperate to get home to rest my eyes and take more cold medicine. I called Hubby on my ride home. He was in a noisy Italian restaurant picking up dinner because he's working late. He could barely talk to me because of the chaos. It was another rushed and frantic conversation.
I'm really getting sick of that. I would love to have a conversation where I can actually get answers to all of my questions before someone has to run off while saying, I'm sorry, we'll have to talk about it later! I'm sick of waiting until later! Do you hear me people?!
OK, I feel better now. What kind of cheese would you like?
Now a random question for you ladies out there...I may have mentioned this before, but I keep getting this lower back pain, on the right side only, a about a week into my cycle, which lasts through ovulation. This is the third month I have noticed this. It feels different than my ovaries, or at least how they feel when stimulated with meds. These last three cycles have been natural after our last IVF. I can only think that maybe it's something with my kidney? I know in Chinese medicine, the kidneys are very tied to the reproductive system, so it seems possible. It just seems strange that it does seem to be related to my cycle. I guess that's why I haven't been too worried about it. Because the ache does eventually go away. But then it comes back. I don't know if I should be worried, or not? Part of me feels like I should call and leave a message for the nurse to ask if I should be concerned, and part of me feels like I won't be able to find the time to deal with it until after Christmas, at which point I will probably feel normal again, for a few weeks anyway, until it's time for stims. But, I do have to go for blood on xmas eve anyway, so maybe they would just check some extra stuff. I don't know. Just curious, weird kidney area-ish lower back pains that coincide with cycle changes, anyone? Anyone?
Battery at 10%. Time for bed!
I am tired of the rushed conversations. The other day I was actually trying to talk turkey about our Christmas budget, but it had to be a phone conversation because I was leaving when he came home, and all he could say is "I can't talk about this at work". Aaarg.
ReplyDeleteI used to feel pain like that in my side quite frequently. It wasn't my kidney, it was my right ovary. In my case, scar tissue from my myomectomy had wrapped itself around it and was pulling during ovulation. You may want to have your gyn do an ultrasound and make sure your tube isn't twisted or etc. In my case, when I had my daughter by C section my OB just removed it.
Alas, our lives are just too hectic these days...I blame the modern world. I have no idea what that pain could be, but I suppose it is worth checking out just in case...you don't want anything to mess with your IVF cycle...
ReplyDeleteI would like goat cheese please. :-) I'm with you -- I think we have let our lives get so hectic that it just stresses us out (or I can at least say that myself). I too, have been in a crummy mood for the last few days. Thinking of you and hoping it gets better and that you feel better.
ReplyDeleteI have had that pain as well, and my acupuncturist has generally told me that it is likely the kidneys just "making some noise" in the process. She has never found it concerning. I also did reiki just once and the practitioner felt energy coming from one of my kidneys. That same day, I did acupuncture and when she put the needle in over my kidney and ovary, it popped right back out! Our bodies are crazy, amazing things! That said -- I always say you should trust your instinct and if you think something could be wrong, get it checked out!
Pass a little blue cheese this way please!
ReplyDeleteI don't know about that pain, sounds fishy, probably worth mentioning to your doc.
I say get an appt. with the ob/gyn to get the internal ultrasound. I get that pain but only when I get cysts.
ReplyDeleteAs for the cheese, some herbed soft cheese for me if you wouldn't mind.
Definitely a big rich blue cheese and a glass of red with the whine, which wasn't a real whine at all. I don't blame you for wanting to have a real proper conversation with someone. Not sure what the pains are. I am sorry I can't help you out. mmmm cheese, mmmmmm wine, mmmmmmm now I am hungry.
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