2.01.2012

Remembering

Violetta, it's been two years since you first tried to make an appearance, and then decided to leave us after only a day. Last year, I wrote about you on the anniversary of the day that I found out about you, instead of the day you decided to go. This year, I don't want to dwell, as I am so hopeful that you are with me now settling in for the long haul, and that this will finally be our time to get to know each other. But I couldn't let this anniversary go by without letting you know how much I have loved you and hoped for you over the last two years. Please stay this time. 

It's funny how dates work out. I'll never forget this day (as if I ever could) which is marked by your Auntie R's birthday. And I will find out if you here again only a few long short days from now. Of course, I have already checked, and if you decide this is your time, you will be due sometime during the week in October which will mark one year since the second time you left us too soon. (unless of course, you decide to keep one of your siblings around, in which case, I'm guessing you'll probably decide to come a bit earlier.)

Please, oh please, my darling baby, prove to us that the third time really is the charm, and give your date obsessed  mother a reason to have happy thoughts in the beginning of February and the middle of October, instead of having to keep on missing you with empty arms. 

We're ready for you. 

14 comments:

  1. Oh how I hope the same thing for you. Time is getting closer and I hope, hope and hope that this little one is in for the long haul!

    Thinking of you.

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  2. I hope so too. :) Everything crossed that you have a baby in your arms in October.

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  3. I can almost feel your emotion while I'm reading this... so beautiful. Hoping that this is the time you bring Violetta home.

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  4. Praying that Violetta is snuggling in for the long haul!

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  5. Hoping and praying that your little one(s) are settling in!!!

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  6. Beautiful. I hope your little one is with you right now.
    I just realized that the date of your second failed IVF...the date you posted that you found out for sure, was the date I lost the twins. We are connected in that way and if your new little Violetta is born around October 12, it will be a lovely thing.

    Let us know when your beta is (or test date) so we can send you and the embabies good thoughts.

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    1. Oh my friend, I will never forget that week in October, how I read your post at my desk at work, and barely having shed a tear yet for myself, I grabbed my phone and ran for the stairwell (the lovely place we have for private phone calls around here). I called my husband and broke down in tears and told him what had happened to your sweet babies. It was a very, very hard week. I so hope better times are ahead for both of us soon.

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  7. This is why I think blogging is SO amazing.

    I want this so bad for you Jen - just as bad as I want it for myself. And your a complete stranger...well kind of. I really think of you as a kindred spirit because your thoughts are my thoughts.

    And in my morning/evenings prayers I kindly ask God to give you the miracle you so well deserve.

    Hugs.

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    1. Thank you so much. It means a lot to know that people out there who I'll probably never meet, yet have so much respect for, are rooting for me as much as I am rooting for them. And I love that you use the term "kindred spirits." I have to guess that you're an Anne of Green Gables fan! I've been searching for kindred spirits for quite a long time.

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    2. Now if we only all lived close together we could plan an "Anne of Green Gables" night and catch up on all these movies!! xoxo

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