Tomorrow

Tomorrow could be one of the best days of my life.

Tomorrow could be one of the worst days of my life.

How is one supposed to prepare for such two drastically different outcomes? I can't think of any other situation in life where the two opposing outcomes are so drastically different. There just isn't any precedent on how one should feel the night before getting such news. Especially not for getting news when I know exactly when that news is coming. Approximately 10 hours from now.

I'm trying to think about previous situations in my life where I was waiting for a yes/no answer.

• Getting into college. I was number 2 in my class. So I guess I wasn't really worried about that one. And it's not like you know exactly when the letter is going to arrive in the mailbox. It just sort of sneaks up on you. 
• Passing my professional exam. Well, it would have sucked if I didn't. But was I really going to fail all three sections? It still would have been a step forward. 
• Making an offer on our house. Again, it would have sucked if we didn't get the house, but we would have found a different house, or made do where we were for a little longer. In that situation, we did know we'd have an answer on that particular day, but not the exact second when the phone would ring. 

I don't know. That's all I've got. And it's not enough to tell me how I'm supposed to feel right now. 

I surprisingly don't feel as nervous as I thought I would. I expect that will change as soon as I try to sleep. I think I've been so busy at work I haven't had too much time to think during the week. I still feel really tired, and a bit headachy. And I have absolutely no idea how this is going to go. 

And I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel.