That's me, talking to myself. Telling myself to give myself a break.
I have to keep reminding myself of what I have just been through. 3 weeks of injections, a week of being so bloated, even my largest pants weren't fitting anymore, of waddling around, unable to get comfortable, with my emotional fuse so short it was amazing there wasn't a incredible explosion. 3 takes to get the IV started - complete with a giant purple bruise on my arm to coordinate with most of my wardrobe, anesthesia, my MIL having to get me home after the procedure, tornado warnings, Hubby being out the night of my recovery, the transfer, bed rest, and going back to work and pretending like nothing is out of the ordinary, when inside, I can barely concentrate, I am hoping so hard that at least one of those beautiful embryos decides to stock around.
It's no wonder that my house is a disaster, there are dishes, laundry and car hair everywhere. But I have to give myself a break. I have to take care of myself and take it slow, and give the babies time to grow and get comfy. I'm exhausted, and there is no way I'm going to get caught up on life in one night.
So, I'm settling for simply unloading and reloading the dishwasher. And then I'm going to get out the fancy coloring book I got at an art museum gift shop over a year ago, and I'm just going to color. Relax, and color, and think of all the scribbled drawings I'll get to hang on my fridge some day.
You are right - you definitely do need to give yourself a break right now and a free pass on all of those lovely household chores. I hope the coloring book was a lot of fun. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteYou definitely need to take a break!! Just lay around, relax and think of your babies settling in!!
ReplyDeleterest up....this is the best time to do that. Everything else can wait....right now it's all about you and those embies....
ReplyDeleteTake it easy, it can only help, both mentally and physically. I hope your coloring book was fun, I like to color, but haven't in a while. I've settled for knitting, it is becoming easier and I can do it without really paying attention now.
ReplyDeleteI found myself doing a jigsaw which I am sure has a similarly soothing effect as colouring. Forget the housework for sure.
ReplyDeleteRelax my dear. You are right to give yourself a break. IVF is so draining (believe me, I know) and you need to keep sane.
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best!
MissC
coloring is the best!!! !but only if you have the crayola box with the sharpener in the back!!!!
ReplyDeletehope you found a way to breath and take care of yourself.