You are an associate. You got promoted because people think you are doing a good job and you deserve it. You ARE doing a good job, and you DO deserve it.
You have worked late the last two nights (and will continue to do so over the next few weeks), and still come home, eaten a reasonably (if not perfectly healthy) dinner, done for a half hour walk, and cleaned up dinner dishes even though you really just wanted to flop in front of the TV.
You are doing the best that you can in the circumstances you are in to be healthy and prepare yourself for your next attempt at bringing Violetta into this world.
You did ALL the laundry in the house on Saturday, including the quilt, and two slipcovers that were caught in the cross fire of your sick cat. (And when I say all, I mean washed, AND put away...unheard of!)
You have an amazing husband, who is just as stressed out as you are right now. But the hammock stand you ordered is in the back yard waiting to be put together. In about a week and a half, you will finally get to swing together in the trees in your back yard.
Even though you are feeling like you have spent more time in the almost year that you have owned your house trying to get pregnant than working on your house, you have to give yourself credit for all the amazing things that you have already accomplished around the house. The basement, the bedrooms, the office and the yard aren't going anywhere any time soon. You have plenty of time to figure out what you want to do with them. But it's ok if you do feel like they have been a bit neglected in favor of creating Violetta. And it's ok to be scared that once she is here, it will be harder to get all of those things done. But you will find a way. You always do...once you set your mind to it.
But, since we don't know yet when she will be here, you will just continue to make small steps of progress without being too hard on yourself if not a lot gets done in the next month and a half. You have an impossible deadline, and are planning an IVF cycle after all.
Right now is the time you are trying to make a baby. There will be a time when you get to focus on your home, and the other creative projects on your list. Do not feel guilty that the time is not now.
As one of your wise blog friends likes to remind you, you are exactly where you are supposed to be.
You are strong, and you can keep going, and you can admit that it's not easy.
It's not easy.
But, you're doing it.
You are doing a great job! While things might not be perfect, you are getting them done. Slow and steady wins the race, right?
ReplyDeleteI know this was meant to be a serious post, but the whole time all I could think was the next line being "And gosh darn it, People like you!" (And they do!)
This is all true!!! You are doing everything you can and it is enough :)
ReplyDeleteGood post and exactly what I needed to hear. Ever since moving into our new house, I have pressured myself about not filling every second with house projects, when I should just focus on staying calm and healthy for my babies.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the knock upside the head and I am proud of you.
Man, I never get the laundry done AND put away. I am so jealous right now :)
ReplyDeleteIt is so hot right now that I have put a lot of things on the back burner. You definitely deserve some down time, time to make that hammock stand a priority and get relaxing, asap.
There are only so many hours in a day. No matter how hard you try, you can only get so much done. I'm a couch potato too most of the time. Good for you trying so hard not to be one.
ReplyDeleteAND you are doing it with humor, self compassion and introspection!!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great idea to give yourself a pep talk!
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are doing amazing...you've absolutely got your priorities straight...