We really are having a pretty fabulous family getaway. I've been having so much fun with Lady C. But today is a little bit harder. My cousin S showed up with her one month old. I had to excuse myself to take a shower so I could let a few tears escape. The oohing and aching over the baby was just a little too hard to take. Later, my other cousin showed up with her boys...prompting this photo. I call it "what infertility feels like"
I'm trying to feel the emotions when they hit, compose myself, and then enjoy the kids. I did have a great snuggle with the new baby after I gave myself time to be sad and polish my toes red for the fourth.
I hope everyone is enjoying the day.
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That photo makes me so sad. You are so far from everyone else. They are off in the distance, hazy and out of focus, playing in the sunshine.
ReplyDeleteI truly wish and hope you will "join" them soon!
isn't that just the exact truth. . . that picture says it all. but i am very proud of you for letting yourself feel what you were feeling and sharing it. now that is self compassion :)
ReplyDeletewhat you can't see in the photo is all of us sitting behind you!
Wow, that picture really does say it all. But it's also sad :( I'm sorry you had a hard time this weekend..I would have too if I was in your situation. I'm glad you came around though xo
ReplyDeleteThis is oh so true!!! I am sorry and hate that we both know these distant feelings....
ReplyDeleteI remember that feeling well...and still feel it when I forget I'm preggers...which I do forget. You will experience that 'in' feeling, it just takes time. And boy does that time suck.
ReplyDeleteWe're here for you and I am sure glad you are letting yourself have those infertile feelings. It's important.
MissC