It Gets Worse

Pardon me ladies, for yet another raging, screaming post. I have to vent this out while it's fresh, before it gets stuck and festers.

Hubby did talk to Nurse N yesterday, who admitted the error, but implied that the estrogen level indicated that this might not have been the most ideal cycle to move forward with anyway, and that a less responsible clinic would have gone ahead, and taken the money to go for it, since it's just insurance anyway.

OK, fine. I was all set to let it go, and move one, and think they they really just want me to have a cycle in the best possible circumstances.

Until Hubby got his requested call back from Dr. A. She confirmed that it was a fuck up. When the nurse saw the results of the E2 levels, she still didn't realize what protocol I was on, and that it wouldn't make a difference. Dr. A confirmed that there is NO indication that those E2 levels have an adverse outcome on an antagonist cycle. But, by the time Dr. A was fully aware of what was going on, I had already started to "recruit" follicles, therefore it was too late for the stims to have an affect to get more.

So no, I'm sorry, I don't take back my rage filled post from yesterday.

She does seem to think we'll get this done in about 6 weeks though, not a full eight, as if that's any consolation. And Hubby said that for the first time, she expressed confidence in a positive outcome. She said she really doesn't plan on #3 or #4. God, I hope she's right.

I guess, what I still don't understand is why I have to have a natural cycle. I guess cause the bcps would have had to start up before the recruiting in order to quiet the ovaries?

At least they are now aware that they fucked up, and that Hubby is paying attention too, and they better be super diligent with us moving forward.

OK, so, after I get rid of all the rage, I will try to focus on the fact that this delay will should put both Hubby and myself into slightly more calm work schedules. We will get our Labor Day cape getaway with no swimming or alcohol restrictions. I have more time to try to loose weight, and keep eating healthy. Although, I had full caf coffee this morning, because it was there, and I didn't want to wait for decaf, and because, fuck that! And I just bought permanent hair dye at CVS because I am starting to have white stripes coming out of my temples. And I might just go get a pedicure because I won't have to take off my toe nail polish for another 6 weeks.

This might sound strange, or like my priorities are misplaced, or something, but in all honesty, one of the things that is really bumming me out about this not happening next week, is that I was really looking forward to a day of anesthesia/percoset stupor, followed closely by two days of bed rest. I have just been going non-stop for most of the summer, and I really need a reason to stop. Is that ridiculous or what? My project is almost over, and I just can't justify calling in sick, without a really good reason, until it is. But, man, do I need it.

My long Labor Day weekend cannot get here soon enough.

Thanks as always for the support and shared outrage. Let this be a lesson to anyone on the antagonist protocol. If they take blood with your baseline ultrasound, ask why?!