Frustrated

I have to get this out while it's still fresh in my mind.

I have been totally screwed over by an error! I want to yell, and kick, and scream! Instead, Hubby is calling back to talk to the nurses, or Dr. A if he can get her, to express his displeasure. I'm glad he's doing it, because I'm not so good at being the squeaky wheel.

I called this morning to ask 3 questions.

1. How long should I expect to wait for my next bleed. A normal 4 weeks? I have no idea what 3 weeks of bcps have done to my cycles. Answer: Yes, it should be a normal cycle length, although it seems that maybe 4 weeks from the last pill, which is maybe only 3 weeks away at this point? 


2. Are there any restrictions on trying naturally right now? Answer: No. Go for it.

3. I'm confused. You say that when I start bcps again next time, it will be for 2 weeks, and this time you will only be doing a baseline u/b, but no bloodwork, and will then get me started. If my E2 was such a big deal this time, why are we not testing it the next time? Please enlighten me...? Answer: "Well, we typically don't test E2 and progesterone at baseline on an antagonist protocol. You were scheduled for that blood work in error." (IN FUCKING ERROR!) Apparently it's not out of the ordinary to have an elevated E2 coming off bcps. And is apparently not an issue because usually they don't even test for it. But, once they tested mine, and saw it was higher than ideal, they decided to wait a day to see if it would drop. And then another two days. And then they waited too long, and now it's too late for them to stimulate because they won't get enough follicles. Because the fact that it went up shows that the one normal follicle I should have is already approaching an ovulatory state. 


Thank you very much for wasting two months of my life. For making me stress for weeks about how to make this cycle work with a very busy work schedule. For making it impossible for me to announce a pregnancy at Christmas to my family, because I won't feel far enough along at that point, even if we are successful later this fall. Thank you very much for acting like it's no big deal, and I shouldn't worry because insurance has approved us through the middle of October, and we should finish this up by then. Thanks very much for pricking my arm three times unnecessarily, only to use that data to fuck with my life.

You had better fucking make this next cycle work to the best of your abilities!