I'm feeling kinda blah, a little bit sad, and I'm not quite sure why. It just kind of hit me as I was driving home from work tonight. It's it funny how quickly moods can change? I have a deadline at work on Tuesday, which in my field, means a week or more of intense time before hand. And, we're trying hard not to work over the holiday weekend. The thing about this particular deadline is that's it's not my project. I've been bouncing around from project to project for the last four months. It's not very motivating. And let's face it, my priorities are elsewhere. I don't feel any attachment to the work. I am drawing and documenting what needs to be done, but I am not the one who gets to make any decisions. I just have to get it done. And it's just kind of blah.
I'm thinking about my dad. I've been feeling much more anxious since I started writing about him. Maybe that's a good thing. Something I need to go through, but that doesn't make it fun.
I have a little cold, a sore throat and some sinus pressure.
My mom is coming to visit this weekend to help us work on our house. I'm really excited, but I'm also nervous because I know she will be asking questions, and I'm really not capable of talking to her about this. Maybe I will ask Hubby to fill her in. I can't decide.
One good thing about today, I saw a number on the scale that I haven't seen in a long time. Nearly 20 pounds down from my wedding weight, which was my all time high. Don't you just love it. I clearly did not handle the wedding planning stress very well. In any case, my no-pressure new year's plan to do 20 minutes minimum on the elliptical 4 times per week may be starting to make a difference. I'm terrible at work out plans, so I started with a really low goal. Most days, I'm managing 30 minutes, and I get to think of it as a bonus instead of an under achievement (my Dr. would prefer 45 min every day, not sure when I'd ever find the time for that!) See how that works.
Anyway, it's a bit of a ramble for a blahish Wednesday night. I'm looking forward to the long weekend, that's for sure!
Congrats on the weight loss! Great job.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're feeling blah- a long weekend sounds like just what you need :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weight loss and hope you feel better from your cold. I too find it difficult to work out, but even more so when I otherwise feel like crap.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're feeling down...those days are unavoidable sometimes. I hope your mom makes you feel better, and you're able to share with her what you're going through. I find it helps to be more open about it.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weight loss! Great way to do it :)
congrats on the weight loss!! That is fabulous :) I am sorry you are feeling down. It is amazing how our moods can change so quickly and I hope you get joy back soon!!! Feel better :)
ReplyDeleteWhat are you doing with the house?