Feeling Overwhelmed and Lucky

Wow. This is pretty insane. This might come out as a jumble.

First, I feel lucky.

Lucky to live five minutes from the fertility pharmacy headquarters, so we were able to pick up the additional medications last night on the way home so that we don't have to go out in the storm today.

Lucky to be able to log in to my work computer from home so that I don't have to go out in the storm, or try to talk to many people face to face, as I might not be able to control my emotions today.

Lucky to have IVF sneak up on me so that I was able to by pass BCPs, Lupron, more waiting, etc.

Lucky to live in the state of Massachusetts which has mandated coverage for infertility. I have had to pay a grand total of $10 for each of my IUIs thus far. (plus whatever the copay for the meds, ranging from $10 - $30) My plan covers virtually everything, and has no plan limits. I just need to get pre-approved. (which will we go for after tomorrow's appointment, apparently my levels are not quite there yet, so this could still get cancelled). Miss Conception reminded me of how lucky I am to not be faced with the thought of coming up with thousands of dollars right now. If the ER is considered in-patient, it could be $500 instead of $10 for the copay, but lets face it, that's nothing to get worked up about in the grand scheme. I think you all should move here. Really.

And I feel overwhelmed.

Overwhelmed to be facing IVF without ever having a face-to-face conversation with my RE about what it entails. We were going to have that talk after 1 or 2 more IUIs.

Overwhelmed to know I will need to miss a day or two of work next week, and I don't yet know which days, so I don't know how to plan in advance for that. At least right now, I am helping on a deadline with two of my best friends at work, who would be the first people I would tell about a pregnancy, so if I have to come clean to them, so be it.

Overwhelmed that Hubby has a big meeting on Thursday, so if that is transfer day, he might not be able to be with me. I guess that's a side-effect of the last minuteness.

Just overwhelmed. There are no words really. This is crazy. This is insane. Hubby and I just giggled like insane people when he picked me up last night. Like insane people who have no idea how else to react.

So, if any of you ladies have advice for me right now, it would be greatly appreciated. I have questions, like when do you start counting after the ER. Is that day 1, or day 0? For example, if I have ER on Sunday as the nurse suggested might be likely, she thought transfer would be Wednesday. Which implies that Sunday is day 0, and Wednesday would be a day 3 transfer? These are the things I haven't gotten to ask because I missed the big meeting with the doctor, and I was sneaking off to back hallways at work yesterday to talk ever so briefly with the nurse. Tomorrow, when I go in for monitoring, I will get a big packet of info. But you ladies are the experts. So please share. What do I need to know?