It's lovely being here with my mom, but I miss hubby! He finished his work a day early and I can't help but feel frustrated that I have to spend six nights away from home because he needed to be gone for two. I wish I had felt ready to handle it on my own.
But I didn't.
I wish there were more people locally I felt comfortable asking for help. I wish my mom lived closer. I wish, I wish, I wish.
The reality is that I'm fighting a cold, and it is nice to have my mom to take care of me. I'm able to get in a few more naps than I usually manage to take at home. In fact, it's about all I'm doing aside from feeding Luigi.
What frustrates me though is that I could have been home by now, nursing Luigi from the comfort of my own bedroom. Hubby was done by noon today, and could have picked me up before two to head back to Boston by dinner. Except that there's this darn nor'easter snowing and sleeting down the entire mass pike. If it were just the two of us, we would have driven in the storm. But with luigi, a giant ladder strapped to the top of the truck from the job hubby was doing, and my high levels if anxiety which currently include an extreme paranoia of car accidents, we decided I should stay put with the little man, giving hubby the chance to actually make it home before the storm. We also would have had to leave most likely before my mom got home from work. And the thought of her coming home expecting to see her grandson and not being able to kiss him goodbye made me weepy all over again.
Hubby offered to come back and get me since she's already been out to us twice in the last month and she doesn't love the drive. So, now instead of getting home on Friday, I have to wait until Saturday, when I could be home now! See, frustration!
All right, little man is done eating. Time to go back to bed! Thanks for letting me vent!
Sorry, I'm sure you want to be home :(
ReplyDeleteWe have no family in the area as well so it's HARD! What I wouldn't give to have my parents in the neighborhood!
Hang in there. Hugs
It is hard to live too far away from your family to see them regularly. My family lives 3 hours away. My mom came to visit when my little one was born, now we won't see the family until Thanksgiving. It feels so far away. Also I hear you on driving in the snow with baby. We're a lot more cautious now.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're not feeling well...it's probably just adding to everything right now. Being away from home sucks, but you're with family. Vent away dear...vent away...that's what we're here for!!
ReplyDeleteAnd as far as traveling in a snow storm? Yeah, I don't recommend it. The first time we took our daughter to see my hubs's family we left in the midst of a blizzard. I was not happy about it. I had to have some control so I drove until we were beyond the storm. Then I sat in the back seat with our daughter and held her hand while my hubs drove with the blizzard quickly catching up to us. Glad you made the safe decision!
Sorry that you aren't used to separations. Hoping that you'll see each other soon.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're not able to get home as soon as hubby got there. We too don't live that close to family. Sure, BIL/SIL live not far away, but we really only see them at her work place. MIL & FIL live an hour and a half away and I just haven't driven there since baby boy was born. MIL has visited a few times and she will come next with (with my winter tires! Yay!) And my family is half a world away.. So, yeah, I get it not living close to family. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope the snow goes easy on you all!