Mid-night Thoughts

Not much time to write these days, so while I sit here at 2:30 am nursing my darling Luigi, I thought I'd try for some bullet points. (Or not since I don't know how to do them from my phone)

Thank goodness for my phone! It is my savior during night feeding sessions. And I bought this awesome app called baby connect which has the ability to keep track of everything. I highly recommend. I use it to track diapers and feeding, even which boob I left off on. Definitely worth $5 because you can also access info online or sync to other phones so other caregivers can add info.

I live in nursing tanks and yoga pants. I got a bunch of tanks from destination maternity when they had a nursing event. Highly recommend. I never put on a bra, and only have one nursing bra that I don't even like. Can't seem to find one in the right size on line, not ready to venture out into the world to try to be fitted. Did by a sleep nursing bra that I think I may actually wear during the day. Is it weird that I don't feel the need for a lot of support?

Nursing is going better, but we're addicted to the shield. It makes the whole thing such a process. I can't just whip out the boob and go. I don't have high hopes of getting rid of it anytime soon, there's just not enough nipple to encourage Luigi to suckle, even if he were to calm down enough to latch well without it. Oh we'll. so be it. We stopped pumping for now at least, so the entire process has been simpler. I'm going to add back a pump session or two in another week or so to start building a freezer stash so I can have breaks occasionally.

I have lost all my pregnancy weight plus an additional 6.5 lbs. (c.hon, don't hate me! I have wicked stretch marks!) it's craziness. Had I known breastfeeding was this magical, I would have just pumped years ago! I also credit some of the dietary changes I was forced into but have kept up due to the GD.

I haven't worn makeup since the day before my cervical ripening. I do not recognize my eyes without mascara. I often have my hair up in a messy bun and have leak spots all over my shirt. And I don't care one little bit.

I only manage to shower every other day. I did manage to shave my legs once so far. Ah, heaven.

I'm taking pain mess less and less, but still a little achy here and there. My incision is healing well though, and the tape was removed on Monday. So much more comfortable now! But itchy.

My little man is doing awesome. He gained a little over a half a pound nice coming home and weighed in at 9.5 lbs in Monday. He's holding steady at about the 75th percentile.

He loves to sleep and I often have to wake him to eat. He often has a compete meltdown at the boob and I feel like I'm torturing him while he gags and coughs and cries while I hold him in place until he calms down enough to realize its time to start sucking. Once he does settle, his little coos and the way he puts his hand against my breast are the sweetest things ever.

At night, he refuses to go back to sleep in the pack n play after nursing. (Altough after i wrote this he did!) He wants to be on us, and seems gassy at times, so he wants to be on his belly or up. I have taken to sleeping a few stretches in the recliner where I nurse him.

He is the sweetest little boy, and so far really only cries for good reason. Although he can't stand to have a dirty diaper for more than ten seconds and he farts a lot which generates lots of little poops.

He likes being in the beco carrier, and I love it. We get cuddles and I can get a few chores done

We are loving our summer infant swadde-mes. So easy to use and they calm him right down, although I think he'll out grow them soon already! Much easier than trying to keep a blanket swaddle from coming apart.

He has great moments of being alert after eating. I could just stare at his little face all day long.

It's all the best thing ever.

And that's enough random rambles for now. Here's some photos as reward, with a focus on mom being in the picture every now and then in all o my glory!